We haven’t spoken a lot the last few weeks, it’s a natural change that I have been as much a part of making as you have, the (failing) attempt to move on from each other, the impossible idea that I could ever move on from the beautiful relationship we had and not look back, not feel like my life had taken a turn for the worst.
Your statement that you are still ‘here for me’ ought to be one i appreciate, but it’s not what we used to have. And even in you being ‘here for me’, my lowest night in a while, you leave me hanging the first day in months I’ve expressed the shit feeling I have most nights going to sleep. Support.
It just backs up the horrible thoughts in my head that life is so much more empty than it used to be.
I never feel special any more, who knows if i’ll ever get used to this…
I shouldn’t spend my days wishing i was back with you, particularly when things seem to be going rather well for you, even if the last couple guys you might have had interests in have disappointed you. Should I be seeking people to fill the hole in my life? I don’t believe anyone could.
sweet dreams are made of bees, who am i to diss a bee, travel the world with the seven bees, everybodys looking for……….bees
once i had a dream that my cat was working at mcdonalds w/ me and she had a lil uniform and she kept getting fur in the fries and everyone was yelling at me and saying “ur cat sucks on fries” and i was like “shes just a cat give her a break!” and i woke up crying